Octoberr

Whoa. October has really disappeared. It wasn't too long ago that I saw someones status or sth tt said 'time to wake up that guy from green day' because september had ended. Now its already the 24th!!

I hate it when time passes and leaves no impression. It might actually be a memory problem (my mind is largely inactive and aint that great at recall which is a big problem) but let's just say that if my life were more exciting I'd remember lots more.

2years spent in the army is an example. I can't remember the minute details even though its one of the most recent life experiences before uni. It usually takes someone to jog my memory and even then only certain events are clear (like jcc). Does my brain want to forget the experience or sth? Its understandable why things might be a blur - it really was just about fighting fires everyday and slowly getting through the week.

What about secondary sch? Memories are even more vague, which is super sad because I'm sure that those days were some of the best days of my life. I remember some pri sch scenes more clearly than secondary sch events.

Maybe I'm wrong. If I do put in the effort I can still remember. But why is it that difficult? Was life so tough - meeting deadlines, training, recovering from training - that all I wanted to do was get through everything, hit a lull period, nuah and forget? Complete nonsense, life wasn't that tough.

I feel like I was in a hurry to grow up (even though I might not have been). It just seems as though I didn't savour youth properly when I still had the chance. Now, when I'm still young and realising it, there is no chance to savour it becos school is da bomb.

Really need to learn how to use minimum effort to obtain maximum returns. While doing other stuff. What other stuff? That's a question for after the fulfilment of a few short term goals. Just gotta be a no-life for a few weeks and see where life can take me after that. I anything.
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